Andrew & Cristina

Today I helped with yet another bake sale at the school. This must have been the third one this semester and it may very well be my last one for a while. I love chatting with the ladies there and it’s fun to see so many new faces during the several hours I’m there, but this is really affecting my ability to enjoy any sweets. I’m serious. If you know me, you know I’m a chocoholic and I would normally never turn down any kind of chocolate. However, the smell of brownies at 7:30 AM is enough to make me never want to see, taste, or smell the darned things again.

As the title of my post says, you can have too much of a good thing, and that brings me to the topic of Saba. I feel bad for complaining so much because I really do like the place. Every time I go out and I look around I am amazed by this island’s beauty and I can’t believe that I get to live here. Now the bad part is that I have to live here and this is not a perpetual vacation. I’m sure you’re thinking there’s not much of a difference given the fact that I don’t work here. You don’t worry about rain, water pumps, and cisterns while on vacation. You don’t have to do all your dishes by hand. There’s no laundry to be done. It doesn’t matter if your vacation is too boring or too full of activities because you’ll be back to your life in no time. This IS my life. Yeah, I know I’m whining.

So I was looking at the message board at the school today and I saw an ad for two cute dogs that needed a home. I know I’m in no position to adopt and to take more animals back home. My parents would kick me out if I showed up with any more of them. But these two dogs were so cute and I’m just a teensy bit lonely (OK, quite lonely) during the day so I thought that maybe I could volunteer to foster some cats and dogs. I wish I could make more of a commitment but I have my own dog and cats to get back to next year. You know this is not even about being bored because as an only child I can keep myself entertained for days on end. It’s about feeling emotionally lonely if that makes sense at all. Yes, I have Andrew, but he’s in school up to ten hours each day and then he has to study a few more hours on top of that. I’m probably also at that stage where I need to take care of something or someone, but we’re definitely not ready to have a baby.

You know, all this could have probably been summarized by saying that I’m emotionally needy and whiny and that it’s about time I went home for a visit. I miss home.